I wanna run away. Far, far, far away. I'm sick of acting like everything is ok. NOTHING is ok, nothing ever was, nothing ever will be ok. I kinda hate Tyler for having me promise him I'd hold out a few more months. This could have been my last week. I would have been amazingly happy these last few days, do whatever I please, whatever. I don't care cuz I'm leaving everyone! I'm THAT selfish and I don't care. I could still do it... finish it on Friday. That was the plan. All I have to do is finish my letters really. Plus search the net on how to load a gun with what bullets and that s**t. But noooo, I have to wait til August. Well... maybe I don't want to. I'll go get the gun now, do my letters quick, and just end it. Just like that. One pull of the trigger and it would all be over. I just wanna get OUT!!!! I hate it here!!! I hate living!!! I hate everything!! I hate everyone!!! I hate myself!! I hate... I just hate it all.
Freyabelle5 · Tue Apr 21, 2009 @ 04:45am · 0 Comments |