im still trying to avoid taking jeremy back, though he says that i cant aviod it, that he has me in the palm of his hand. he is convinced that i cant help myself, that i will come to him eventually, and i often think he is right. however, i will still fight it, because i can never stop fighting, if only to prove him wrong. he still calls me sweetheart and says he loves me, though i know he doesnt, so i still fight, so i dont have to go through the pain of seeing him flirt with other girls, then breakup with me on a whim, only to try to win me back hours later. my heart cant take that kind of pain. i hope i can find a man to help me escape this trap, though he will have to be tough, and i fear that any new bf of mine may have to fight him, which scares me. besides, it takes a tough man to put up with me, lol...and to keep away the scary stalker guys that show up sometimes...anyways, i will keep fighting, and keep looking for a nice, strong man to love me, and maybe ill be able to love him too, if my heart is still cabable of it...
theshadowolf · Fri Apr 24, 2009 @ 04:40am · 0 Comments |