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Meh -.-
...I wanted to RO today. My damn net wont' stay connected. I HATE YOU AOL...ebilness....
I really, really wanted to play RO sad It upsets me that I can't. I chatted for like 5 minutes with my sissy before I got cut off. I didn't get to talk to Johnathan at all and that makes me madder than any friggin thing else. I think....
iRL
I'm mad.
Extremly pissed.
Dunno if its just cause its that time of the month, or cause I just spent the last hour or so arguing with my best friend about RO.
I dunno, I don't care, but I'm mad.
First off, I'm sicka people and their ******** "fears" concerning me. This isn't aimed towards Cain at all, cause if my memory serves me correctly a few PM's ago he said somethin bout bein afraid I was still mad at him, its not Cain at all I'm perfectly content with him and Lee-Lee. It's just...other people I really trust, and have faith in and believe in and s**t just totally ******** ignoring me...
It's not cause they're mad at me, sick of me, scared of me, they're just ******** ignoring me because they're afraid. Of what...?!
...I consider myself to be the most unthreatning, friendly, caring ******** person out there and I get this s**t? If your ******** sick of ******** talking to me then gather up the damn courage and tell me so. I don't care who you are, this applies to everyone including people who I usually exclude from such...stuff.
It's just...like...If you don't wanna talk to me anymore, or can't, just say so. I'll freakin understand, just give me a damn head's up. Don't leave me sitting here in the friggin blue wondering what the hell happened....
neutral There was a time lapse, just now, my moms boyfriend called me and asked me to look up some cheat codes for his game. sweatdrop That calmed me down a bit...
I'm still mad at Tyler though. Him's meh best friend-ed-did. Everytime I play RO he critizises (sp?) me for it and I hate that so much. I like playingn Ragnarok damn it, so let me play. I don't ******** with him when he plays those retarded football games so why can't he respect me? So blah, I was playin RO and he called and as people (may) know I can't multi-task worth squat. So I'm not focused on whatever he was saying and playing and he got mad at me for not listening, like he's my father or something, and so...::shurgs:: I got heated. Screaming in teh phone and s**t. He calls RO retarded and for losers and stuff and I mean...so what? He's subject to his own opnion but I just don't like him constantly downing RO when I love to play it so much. So then he tried to turn it around and say I was mad because he was talking about the game, and I mean I was, but its the principal of the matter. Meh, it makes me fluckin hate people. It's like, I bet he doesn't even think its stupid on his own. Just because the media and our peers and stuff coin playin games like RO and watchin cartoons and stuff as immature and foolish for my age doesnt' mean anything. People need to stop listening to what those sources are saying and voice their own opnion damn it. scream
Le sigh...doesn't really matter, though.
I went shopping with my mom today. Had a blast. We didnt' go yesterday 'cause she was drugged up on Nightquil(sp?). But this morning was so much fun. I got loads of stuff I needed and even things I wanted for once. We bought the Sims 2, and had Subway, and it was just...great. Like we were a real family for once.
Instead of using the illegal way I was playing Sims 2, its great to have the legal copy! I got my own registration code and everything rofl My new families save so I dont' have to sit like a zombie infront of my comp and play non-stop for hours~! ...unfortunalty...my facination with the Sims 2 died the moment we bought the game. gonk Once it actually saved families and stuff my entire facination died xp What sucks, is that I just lost $40 outta my christmas fund, cause my mom bought it with taht money ...doesn't matter, though...
In just 39 days I'll be 18~! ...whats sad, is I had to use a calculator to add up the days. sweatdrop Anyway, when I turn 18, those $477 social security checks my mom gets for "my benefit", will be in my name now in my bank account for my personal use. So forget her, don't egt me anythin for christmas mom, I'ma buy my own stuff cool ...couse, I'll have to pay a bill and rent as well once I get the check since I still live with meh mom...but hell, its worth it. Unfortunalty, I only get the $477 for 5 months, then they take it away because I graduate. Makes me wanna fail this year.
...sike. blaugh
I'm thinking abotu my future alot now, eh, besides college anyway. I remember I used to get mad at Sephy because he said he was puttin off college, but now college is just a step away...I can see why he wants to wait. Well, I dunno his exact reason why, but I'm just to lazy for all this. For me, it all boils down to my laziness. I'm sick of school, books, teachers, hell, life for that matter...I just wanna take a break and relax...forget about the world and all its troubles...but I can't. gonk I applied for the Autumn semester/quater for every college I've applied to xp ...meh, I'm screwed-ed-did.
I hate college. I hate thinking about it and knowing it'll happen. Before, I used to dream of this moment. Now, its like...god no...please don't make me go. I hate the applying part the most...I don't care about the wait or the wondering "oh-gee-golly-gosh, will they except me?!", cause I've applied to no college I really give two ******** about. As a matter of fact, there is no college I give two ******** about. Tee hee, I said "two ********"... 4laugh But yea, I dun care about the colleges...I just hate applying. I hate writting essays. Now I do, atleast. Last year I LOVED it...now its a burden. I hate, hate, hate, hate it. It's just cause I'm lazy now. I feel like I'm working myself to hard, and I wanna take a break, but breaks are
f o r b i d d e n . . .
ebilness, I swear. Either sometime this week or this weekend I'ma finish the dreaded essays. I gotta turn my stuff in by December 15th to qualify for scholarships and I know I need 'em. Unless that FAFSA thing will take care of it all sweatdrop But I dunno if it will, and I'm not taking any unnessasary chances. 3nodding
I got back to school tommrow, and I don't wanna go. I wanna cry and whine and throw a childish fit. sad I loved this break from school and from the college classes. I want more freetime. Wanna relax. Cry. Cry. Cry.
I miss Matty....I haven't talked to 'em in forever. I mean, I did the other day, but not like how we used to talk. I miss when we used to talk forever on the phone to eachother...but as soon as he got his net back he totally quit calling meh and wanting to talk like...voice talk... Nobudy wants ta hear meh uglah voice
...psh, I dun care. mad I didn't want ya to hear anyway!
I talked to Noojie on Wednesday, and since I guess Chris died or something neutral I guess I'll just write Noojie now. Just need to find stamps. 3nodding My mom won't gimme none...::sigh::
...so I gotta wait till the second wednesday of January, when I get my check, to buy some gonk .
Hrmm...this entire Chris prediciment has me wondering. Like, I have 8 letters I gotta send ta 8 diffrent people, 4 of those letters have something special in them, well...its special to me atleast, and like...I wonder if I should send the one I have ta Chris. I wanna, bet your a** I wanna, but I dunno...he's one of those people who seem to be either ignorning me or busy or whatever. Hims coulda atleast said he was one of those things before never speaking to me again. stare I'm not mad at 'em, my feelings are extremly confused. It's like...I should be mad, but its just a...void of confusion? x_X....I dunno. It's just like...ok, if Chris has forgot me or whatever, should I send him the special thing or send it ta someone else? Maybe Chris can't write me or something, like he doesn't have the resources to or just can't for whatever reason. I can't not send it to him and he hasn't forgotten me. But if I do send it, and he chose to forget me, I'll look seriously stupid doing it gonk So now I gotta come to the decision of if I wanna look stupid sending him one 'n he forgot me or send him one but he's not allowed to get it and het him in trouble or---eh, I confused myself. I'll worry about it anotha time. 3nodding
I LOVE MY DDR~!!!!!!!!! No, I dont' play it non-stop, but when I do play...its just so much fun~! Only reason I don't play it non-stop is cause I'm either not at home or whne I am at home my PS2 is acting up. I usually gotta use my brothers PS2 to play it sad ...my lil brother KJ loves it though whee I usually play aganist him when I do play. We both play at like...the same unexperianced beginner level redface Like, the first song on the list is this really slow one and he and I even miss the steps on that. mrgreen It's a wonderful, coordinating, learning experiance.
Hmmm....Pepe called me like, on Wednesday I think, and I missed the call. He's made a few calls, and I missed all of them and I don't understand how I did. neutral I'm usually with my phone, but I never hear it ring. I wonder whats goin on...its the same when Kevie calls me. It's...very strange. >< PEPE TEXED ME TOO!!! ...which makes me very mad! Not mad at him, just mad in general! stressed You guys who are texting me are seriously gunna make my aunt take my phone! I'm being so serious and its like people aren't getting the hint. stressed I dont' wanna lose my phone prease stop
I was watchin Adult Swim on Thursday, and this one Axe bodyspray commerical caught my attention. I mean, I seen it before, but I musta been horny or somethin cause it really caught my attention. They had this...really, really cute guy on there. He kinda looked like Josh, and he was sprayin teh Axe on his back and the scene switched and he was gettin off his motorcycle or moped (cause those are so cool heart ) and hsi girl was stuck to 'em and...well, the part that caught me was the part when he was shirtless. Damn that guy was... cute.... heart redface heart
Erm! ::cough::cough::cough::
It's just... sweatdrop its the first time I ever saw a guy who was actually kinda cute on an Axe commercial...cause usually they have the girls droolin on teh guys, or the one where the girls were dancing on the poles cause the guy was showering with Axe a--...or was that Bod? ...s**t...well, some kinda guy body spray.
For those who've actually read this far, congradulations, I love you. heart
AOL is still not keepin me connected...every 5 mins I get cut off and thats really starting to get on my last nerves >< I was peeved about that earlier, but I'm kinda calm and mellow now. ninja
I'm tiered now, Ish 9:50pm, Adult Swim will soon be on so I need to hop in the shower, brush teeth, blah blah blah so I can fall asleep to that. 3nodding
