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So, yeah, currently I'm a senior in High School. It's been a little stressful this year for me. Ok, that's a huge understatement. I honestly can't believe I've survived this long. It's just been one stressful moment to the next, and this year has gone by in such a blur, I find myself two months before graduation. It's a little exciting I suppose. I guess I'm more nervous than anything else.

I'm going to be going to Central Connecticut State University in the fall, which happens to be placed in the same city that I've grown up in and known all my life. I'm not even living on campus, it's so close. I'll be commuting from my apartment that I've been living in for the last 18 years. You see my problem? I'm not experiencing ANYTHING NEW. I feel so oppressed, and depressed. I see a bunch of my high school friends preparing to go to universities halfway across the continent, and here I am, staying put because I can't afford anything else. You can see why sometimes I hardly see the point in trying so hard. I just want to live my own life. I want to experience what it's like to be on my own. And I cant.

So yeah, that's my rant for now. If you've read this far, I've probably depressed you and you wanna smack me around a bit for being such a pessimist. Sorry. ^^;