Rejection hurts. “Derek” doesn’t like me back in the way I like him. I feel like crying. But I’m determined not to let it show how much I am.
I am so disappointed in myself. I opened up when I knew it wasn’t safe. I let myself fall for someone who I knew had no interest in me. I shot myself in the foot. I’m in so much emotional pain right now it’s not even funny. He told me I was like a sister to him. Stress the word sister. Sister. That word needs to be illegal. Sister. Sounds like… I don’t know mister. I just don’t want to face him very much. “Heath” bidded me to hint to “Derek” that I liked him but I’ve been skeptical. I didn’t want to set myself up for this much hurt. But I grew overconfident at their encouraging words. I hinted. Oh God in heaven this hurts. I love him. I know it’s naïve for me to say that, but I feel stupid saying I like him to the point where it hurts. So I’ll just say love. But he doesn’t feel the same way. I feel so stupid. I’m so disappointed in myself. I wish I could walk outside into this Oregon rain and drown myself in a puddle.
Here’s a song that I’ve been listening to for hours. It’s way too true dammit.
I could lose my heart tonight
If you don’t turn and walk away
Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control
And let you stay
Cause I could
Take you in my arms
And never let go
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I can only wonder how
Touching you
Would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow
Will you want me still
So I should
Keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
And I know it’s not right
And I guess I should try
To do what I should do
But I’d fall in love
Fall in love
With you
Siempre estoy sonando en ti
Besando mis labios
Acariciando mi piel
Abrazandome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amas
Como yo podía amar a ti
{Roughly translated:
I am always wishing you were with me
Kissing my lips
Caressing my skin
Embracing each other in crazy love
Imagining that you love me
Since I love you}
So I should
Keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
With you
~Selena Quintanilla-Perez~
5/16/71 – 3/31/95
I am so disappointed in myself. I opened up when I knew it wasn’t safe. I let myself fall for someone who I knew had no interest in me. I shot myself in the foot. I’m in so much emotional pain right now it’s not even funny. He told me I was like a sister to him. Stress the word sister. Sister. That word needs to be illegal. Sister. Sounds like… I don’t know mister. I just don’t want to face him very much. “Heath” bidded me to hint to “Derek” that I liked him but I’ve been skeptical. I didn’t want to set myself up for this much hurt. But I grew overconfident at their encouraging words. I hinted. Oh God in heaven this hurts. I love him. I know it’s naïve for me to say that, but I feel stupid saying I like him to the point where it hurts. So I’ll just say love. But he doesn’t feel the same way. I feel so stupid. I’m so disappointed in myself. I wish I could walk outside into this Oregon rain and drown myself in a puddle.
Here’s a song that I’ve been listening to for hours. It’s way too true dammit.
I could lose my heart tonight
If you don’t turn and walk away
Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control
And let you stay
Cause I could
Take you in my arms
And never let go
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I can only wonder how
Touching you
Would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow
Will you want me still
So I should
Keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
And I know it’s not right
And I guess I should try
To do what I should do
But I’d fall in love
Fall in love
With you
Siempre estoy sonando en ti
Besando mis labios
Acariciando mi piel
Abrazandome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amas
Como yo podía amar a ti
{Roughly translated:
I am always wishing you were with me
Kissing my lips
Caressing my skin
Embracing each other in crazy love
Imagining that you love me
Since I love you}
So I should
Keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
With you
~Selena Quintanilla-Perez~
5/16/71 – 3/31/95
