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omfgigoshies..>.> what ever that means..I'm still debating that...well heres a review of today.
In the moreing, I was in socail studies, and we had to turn in reports yesterday, about a fictional bok report. Wow, I got a hundered and my teacher read out a very very bad example, and a terrific exapmle (mine). Since I'm only in 6th grade, she said I went to a super smart scary school D:. Yup. Ive the smartest kid in the 6th grade. Plus, I try to make friends with everyone. Nerds. Geeks. Populars. Bob. Loners. Obnixious. randoms. Crazys. Outcasts. jerks. Goths. Trouble-makers. Everyone. So they say that I am a perect witch that can trick anyone to be my friend. Well, thats what the populars say. Everyone is so mean to everyone. I hate it. But most of the rumors start because of Austin. Hes.A.jerk. I used to love him, his cutness made me melt when he looked at me. I'd give him money, food, homework help (because he knew I was super smart) anything. Then I relized what had happened. Over the whole time we became 'friends'. He always picked on the girls he liked. Pull their hair, bother them. Ect. But not me. I was really invisble to him unless he needed something. Then he begged like he loved me. Then one day, I said. "No. Get out of my face you jerk. Used and abused!" I yelled loudly, causing a scene. Hopefuly, people will relize what a totally jerk he is. The 'popular' people hate me and pretend to like me, asuming I won't notice, but I'm not stupid ya know. I can tell, and I just play along. so then he started to spread nasty rumors about me, thinking they work. And it did. Then I started to ignore him, and hes spread even more. then he said he was sorry. The I said "Sticks and stone may break my bones, but words will shatter the soul" I said turning around quickly, walking off. I over heard his friends say, "Dude you just got dissed by a girl." others said "DISSSSED!"
The girls laughed. I felt great. Then one day I said to him "Ya know what? I hope you start smoking, I want you to die." You see, we had assianed seats at lunch, and he was unfortantly, placed by me. I was stil his friend, at the time, but then I noticed, "I to good for him, and who cares? I don't need to give crap to someone for them to like me. Just my heat. Thats all". Then others things went down-hill from there. My ex-step-father, who was my father for 7/11 years of my life lied to me. Broken. Ive never been so devistated before. I couldn't belive it. He always say " I'll be your daddy forever, you know that? Did you know I love you? Well its true. Never leave me. You'll always be my little girl" He'd hold me when I was scared. Now its all gone. I don't know if I can face him again. he wrote me a letter, and I cryed and cryed. My grades started to drop. He had a promise to keep. He promised my mom he'd never hurt me. And he did. I don't know if I could ever forgive him.
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-Jessie

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