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Hey I've been dealing with my parents trying to file a divorce for what seemed like its been going on for years. My parents were strong people. I and a whole lot of other people looked up to them, so it makes me wonder : What can cause two people who are so sturdy to fall? I heard them crying at night a lot and quite franly it hurt. There was a pain inside of when I heard them cry because I knew not only were my tough nails parents cring, so was my little brother. I knew he was sobbing into his pillow tring to keep the noise down. The worst part is I couldn't do anything about it I just stayed awake listening to my love ones suffer. I hated it.
When I came home I expected to feel the normal dreadful sad feeling, but when I walked in the door my mother was singing! The windows were open and she was packing swimsuits! A total change. My parents draged me into my mom's room and they told me the divorce was off. I was absolutly shocked. I expected more bad news, but insted my family was cring tears of joy. My dad said we needed to selebrate, so were going to go swiming. My reaction was Waaaaaa???? I was still shocked. I was shocked and confused, but happy . I don't know how this will end. I turned so good so fast It just dosen't seem real. ......... I may be seting my self up for misery, but I'm going to let my self be happy. I haven't been truly happy in a long time.
You know whats wierd? I never cried during the " devorce " time, but as soon as I was alone I cried my eyes out , not of pitty, not of shame, or misery, but happyness. Sounds corny , but I was happy for the first time in a long time , and I cried for the first time in a long time.