I decided. I am not going to tell her anything about how I feel. I like it being friends with her and if I tell her how I feel, everything would probably change. I cannot risk that. My main mission is to save her, not to make her love me. Yeah, she may as well as read this now because I have made everything all so obvious deliberately, hoping for an answer but yeah, I failed to get it.
I know it in my heart that she doesn't really has any deep feelings for me. We are just friends. Yeah, just friends. She is my best friend though. For me to fall for her, haha, I don't regret it. Seriously, how could I resist? She's the first friend I have in about 10 lonely years. She totally changed my personality. I guess love does change everything. She is also an amazing person. So nice, so interesting. She is going to donate her organs when she dies, just like me(maybe not because now that I have seen my body react to injuries, maybe I should just cancel the intention. I don't want that guy to get so easily damaged like me). She is also very cautious. She already identified which part of her she don't want to donate because her lungs might cause cause the recipient to get cancer). She is really hardworking even though she says she's not. She's totally smart. She's a really talented artist. She maybe rude and arrogant at times but that's something to appreciate at times. She's a quiet person at times and that kinda worries me. She's a fine lady whom if observed carefully, can be seen lacking love. She was quite and emoish person(now she's stating that I am an emo). She's a bit short but I guess that's normal nowadays. Everyone looks rather short. The mid and high school students nowadays are a bit shorter than me and my classmates when we were their age. Well, anyways, her being short is not really a bad thing. In fact, it may be of use just in case of accidents in the future. If we are going to talk about how pretty she is, don't ask me because she's totally beautiful to me. I don't care what everyone says about her. She looks really elegant to me. She has a beautiful figure...to me probably. I don't really know how to grade girls since I am not a pervert nor a modeling photographer. Well, there's a billion of reasons why I love her but there's a reason why I decided not to confess to her my feelings. I don't want to ruin our friendship. The main mission here is to save her from Hell, not to make her love me. That can be included as a sub-mission but the main mission is still the most important thing. I will try until the end. I just wonder if I can prove to her I'm right by showing her the pact actually works. Maybe show her how I can make a rose live for 7 months(no joking).
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