I'm working on a school project and while really thinking over the answers I'm putting I'm realizing that I don't really know myself. Is this really how I feel? Am I submissive without faith and trust? Is that really why I shy away from sharing my faith? My head knows He won't let me fall but my heart doesn't.
Is my fantasy world taking me far away from myself as well as the rest of the real world? Am I losing my identity? What am I supposed to do? This retreat is keeping me safe from the pain of the outside world and it gives me my strength. I'm not strong enough to take on the real world so why can't I just stay how I am?
I don't want to become my old self who was stepped on by everyone because she was face down on the ground. Removing the barrier from my heart is the only way to know it but it will take me back to how I used to be. What am I to do?
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