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Title:Want to Cut
Description: umm just came up with this...please tell me what you think of it.

I sat here stareing at the blade on my bed.
Go ahead and do it they said.
No one will care when your gone,
I just wish that they are all wrong.
I pick up the blade,
Screw you all I say.
I cut myself once,
but not deeply.
I cut myself twice,
now I'm getting dizzy.
I cut myself three times,
now I'm so sleepy.

Months later I want to go back to my old ways.
I sit here shaking because I want to so badly.
I start crying fusterated at myself.
Just one cut to get rid of all this pain I feel.
You say go ahead do it, I don't care anymore.
Hearing you say that made my heart so sore.
You were suppose to be my angel,
the one that could heal
me with just speaking.
What you said made me feel even more pain,
so I put the blade to one of my veins.
I start to cut but stop.
I can't do this i say.
What if I go too deep? I want to live to see another day.

I'm sitting here on my bed stareing at the blade
wanting to cut so my pain will fade.