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sometimes i feel sad other times i feel mad...mad at the world mad at my parent at my family and at my friends. im mad at everything that has happened and the fact that i finally found someone i love with all my heart and my mind and my body finally i have someone i could care for, then he has to go all of sudden when im finally where i belong... he has to go and leave me alone in the world abandoned, and im afraid... im sad that hes leaving sad that i wont see his face again but in mad at god for doing that for making leave for making it happen to me but i know its not his fault but ill miss him so much that i cant take it anymore im not finished with my life its barely getting started even though ill give it up for him its still not good enuff im not worth living here but he is hes my saint my life hes my everthing i wish i could take it bak but i cant so y try..... i want it to be ovr for me to stop the suffering i make to myself.....im mad