Vanity..something that manifest itself in the media and everyday lifestyle of those around us. The seed of jealously, hatred, and self destruction.
I find myself looking through shots of the most elegant and alluring people this world has to offer. Bodies perfect, eyes full of life, and the center of all attention. I find myself envious for some odd reason. It is against my nature to care about appearance but as I flip through each page I question my own image. My body. Everything. I read the comments left by those who have studied these individuals as well, and they merely encourage it. I find myself wanting to but what is the point?
These people are mass produced. Told this is how they should look and anything beside it is disgusting and an abomination against humanity. Sickening when I think about but I can't help but want to follow suit of those leading the way. I realized today I was starving myself to become thin when I am already a healthy size. Even thought about breast implants or something of the sort. I was horrified beyond belief when I caught myself thinking I was disfigured. I wanted so badly to be like those people I saw, faces painted and bodies fake, that I would sacrifice my own safety. Then the thought came to me. How many other people have done this but never caught themselves? Regretted it later just for a few moments of being counted as elegant.. It is weird to desire changing something I was once content and happy with.
The more I flip through the pages I realize how much vanity controls us. I read in a person's journal on the site, he hated people thinking he was vain but clearly he is. Every photo is him. Nude. Clothed. Painted. Him. He admitted he loved the compliments but that it didn't make him a vain person. Clearly it does.
Vanity is as stated. Excessive pride in one's appearance, qualities, abilities, achievements, etc.
Has the world fallen blind to true beauty due to the modern day science of body work and make up. It saddens me that in these pages I see only one woman real. No make up. Not body work. Truly a work of art.
It really shocked me how close I was to something so shallow and degrading...to destroying my body for something the media deems 'beautiful'. I have angered myself..
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