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The pain
the despair
the love
the desire
the confusion
the illusion
my feelings destroy me
the desire for one thing
one person
nothing more
nothing less
if only they know
it wouldn't be so hard
it is taking a toll on my soul
fighting my demons
fighting the fire
the fire that burns me
and no one else
trying to hide the fire
and the desire
it burns me deep inside
It's starting to consume me
******** up my life
confusing me
causing pain like no other
I am crying deep inside
trying to put out the fire
fire of passion
fire of desire
if only the tears could put it out
life would be so much easier
if I could live my life
without the thoughts
the thoughts of affection
my soul would be free
free to be what ever it wants to be
but I can never be that way
because the flames will never die
not until the flames take my life
or the day my last breath leaves my body
then the flames will finally die
the burning will end
the confusion dies
affection ends
thoughts sease to be
feelings for others ends
care dies
love flies away
carried by the winds
but in the end
watching even after death
caring
loving
crying
watching the one I care about
the pain will still be with me
just with the fact that I will not be with them
and the pain will consume me
the tears will never end
that is my dilemma