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As you may know, last month I moved to a male account on Ragnarok Online because I was tired of men chasing my pixels and not taking me seriously because I'm a woman. On my male account I made an Assassin [64?], Priest [near 70], Wizard [67], Archer [40-ish], Merchant [36] and I think that's it. So yeah, I did that all in a month. Not a big deal for some of the hardcore players I know of, but that's some major leveling for me to cram into one month.

After all that work I did to establish myself on a new account the night before last I was on my Wizard in Alde and I was looking at all the pretty female Wizard sprites and thought that I could have had an elegant Wizardess like that as well if I hadn't have changed accounts. Because hell, I want to be taken seriously as much as the next gamer, but I'm also a woman and I like to look good [even online]. Not for the sake of others, but for myself. Then I thought... There was a time when women writers would sign their initials or even have a pen name to make it seem as if they were a man who had written the article/novel/whatever. But once they all started coming out and showing that they were women people were forced to see that women could be strong, intelligent figureheads as well.

Why should I feel as if I have to become a man to get respect? Perhaps I was even ashamed of my own gender. I was in Alde the other day on my male account and heard this couple talking. "Baby, let me borrow 12mil for Christmas, kay?" the girl said. He replied, "Sure I'll let you buy my present with my own cash lol". He actually seemed serious about that statement as I listened to the rest of the conversation. And she looked quite pampered by him as well [he was a Trans class]. And I thought 'Why can't I just be who I am.' Many males think that females play RO for the cute items and to chat and goof around only. Truly, a large portion of females do play RO for that reason. But the night before last I decided that I was going to return to my female account. I was going to be a woman and be as butch as I wanted to be and no one could stop me! In that beautiful revelation I realized that I enjoyed being vicious and rejecting the men who toddle after me. I loved to startle them with my crude and witty comments and unnatural ability to comprehend the male psyche. I am a woman. In fact, I am so woman that I have broken the loop and become alfa-female. So even though I adorn pink locks and a tiny leotard or skirt, I am more man than 99% of the male population of Earth and they better damned well fear it.

I am now happily settling into my new Mage. She is a little over a day old and she's 55/43. She took the place of my old female Wizard I had on that account until yesterday. I wasn't satisfied with the build I had for her. 99 int was a tad too much for my tastes. So yes, I remade!

I have never been more pleased with myself. (:

Fear my v****a.

[/feminist rant]