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Its that feeling you get when you find out things weren't as you thought...
That feeling you get when you don't know what to do and it makes you go a bit insane...
That feeling of heartache...at the loss...
I know this feeling all too well...
Because it isn't the first time it happened...
Yet,blindly,I continue to let myself cycle through it.
Why?Why continue?
A part of me says it would be best to just shut myself off from the world,like I used to.
Another part says that it will change...
I don't know which side to believe...
I know this feeling all too well...
And I hate it...I hate feeling this way...
I wish this feeling would just go away...
But thats not how things work.Its never how things work.When you need something to leave,it never leaves.Not until it's satisfied with torturing who you are.
And thats just what it's doing to me...
I need help...a hand...to guide me from this...
I know this feeling all too well...
If its not rid of soon...
I'll become everything I said I wouldn't...everything I said I hate...