i remember a little while ago, about 6 months ago, i was extremely depressed, and all i could think about was what was wrong with me. was i damaged? i felt unwanted and tainted... but things have changed immensly in the last six months, and you know what, im really glad they did, because i'm pretty sure if they hadn't i would not be here writting this today. i would be sleeping, and drowning in my depression, not doing a damn thing to change things. i used to let things happen, but when i almost lost danny this last time, i finally stood up for what i wanted, and that was him. that was all i wanted, and you know what? he game me all i ever wanted, and more than i could ever ask for. recently i had a hate letter written to me, in the last week of high school, and when i read it, i was hurt and i cried, but i knew that what was written didnt mean anything, and that danny would make me feel better when i needed him, and he did. he was and always has been there for me, and i think that every one needs someone like that. he was my best friend for six years, the person i would turn to when everyone else had turned their back on me. now he happens to be the man i want and will try very hard to spend the rest of my life with. he understands me like no one has ever and the only thing that i have to give him is myself, and i hope that that is enough to keep him for the rest of my life. he is the one that i someday would like to have children with. my life is his. i have never felt this way about anyone and i dont think that i will ever feel the way that i do about him, for anyone else. its funny how in the space of a few months can change a persons life, and i am now a firm believer that life is to precious to watse, and that if i had my life to do over again, i wouldnt; because i wouldnt want anything to change the fact that i found my ONE person, THE man that you learn to look for watching disny princess movies, and i found my prince... shining armor and all....
i used to think that my favorite flower was the calla lilly, and it was for a long time, but i realised why... i was alone and you never see a calla lilly growing with a lot of other ones, but i found out, that i now love sunflowers. i dont know why, but i just love the way they smell and the feeling that they invoke, kinda of like the feeling i get when i see daniel...
