♥ I've got a smile on my face and a [******** you attitude...
{♥My manager has returned to work from an almost month long "vacation". Let's hope he's better this round...
I had some more trainin in my job so I am on my way to climbin that ladder. Let's mark our calendars and hope I get a promotion Oct...
Forgive me for my scatter brain I have alot of thins on my mind that I'm not sure how to put down in words or even how to "talk about it"....I hate talkin about my feelins, ugh....I went through my computer last night to clean up some space and to get rid of some unnecessary thins and came across some old photos of me...I saw how I looked with long hair and I have been thinkin of growin my hair out. My hair is short now because I hate my straight hair and I have had perms since I was in the 7th grade and always loved how my hair looked in curls, but strangely for once I want my straight hair...straight and long.
Lately I have been havin some troubles...too much time on my hands gets me thinkin...thinkin of thins I don't want to, or need to. Anyways in some of my random thoughts, one came up and until I actually go through this I won't fully know if it's true or not. I have always tried to come out of my shell and there are times in my life where I have actually been able to, but I feel I am movin a bit to slow and I just need to pop the damn shell off. I remembered when I had long hair I did enjoy it..there were some perks, but the downfalls where the reasons why I cut my hair. I was bein too selfish and "materialistic" I constantly remind myself and others to embrace the beauty of the unique yet I did not embracemy uniqueness completly. Instead I hid it under chemical curls. It's gonna take a while for my hair to grow long again but I should take that time to try and focus on a few other thins about myself and my life. I have my goal to go to Europe, I have always wanted to go for soo long. I know I won't be able to live there because of the current job I am in, but my visit there will help me find myself and where I want to be. My life isn't gonna last very long and it's about time I start bein who I was meant to be. I need to make somethin more of myself.
(I'll post some of the pics I was talkin about in the next entry)♥}
... because from this day forward I'm livin my life for myself. ♥
