Stupid, Idiotic b***h is what I am...
How do I always manage to ******** things up in the end...? Before it even ends? I'm too much of a ******** coward to do anything to make this or that end. I just... I don't know... I'm so stupid... I'm a stupid, idiotic b***h for what I've been doing recently.
What am I going to do?
I should call up my boyfriend and tell him it's all over because it seems like it just won't work out between us, tell him I'm sorry, and hang up...
I should call up another, apologize for the things I've done to make him such an emotional wreck, tell him how I really feel. That I do love him, that I love everyone I meet and get to know, that he's very close in my heart... Tell him that I'm just not ready for what he has in mind in the close future. I'm still a teenager. I want to have my fun...
I should call up the other person then, listen to his voice and what he has to say, and feel happy because of him...
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