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I suppose that I always saw it as nothing more then a word used by the government to sell stuff on valentines day
but lately i've sorta felt what it is

its always been hard for me to say "I love you" to anyone
even my family
and when guys would say that to me i'd break up with them
I guess I was always afraid to feel it
well its changing

I have known this guy for about 3 years
but it wasn't untill the 2 years ago that I have been actual friends with him
and now he is my best guy friend
he makes me laugh no matter how sad I am and he says I do the same for him
I can tell him anything and he tells me everything
we can talk for hours about nothing and when I am with him I forget about the world
when he has a girlfriend...I feel some what jealous
and if the girl hurts him...I hurt
he tells me that when I am hurting so is he
and I feel the same
he is the only guy that I ever felt this way about
and I have no problem telling him how awesome he is
and that I love him
he told me that he was worried he would never find anyone that was right for him
but than he told me that there is one girl that is perfect for him....
he said I was his perfect girl...
but he only see's me as a sister....
and for some reason it hurt....
but he's told me that I was like a sister to him a lot
it wasn't untill last night that it hurt...
I think I am falling in love....but he doesn't see me that way....so i'm kinda hurting..