I've had my many troubles in life, but days like today I feel alone. Like no one really understands where I'm comming from, not even my younger Sister. It depressing when you think about it, but I try my hardest not to. I feel like people always come to me in my darkest hour for answers, and I'll be damned when I learn to fully say no. I may be the Goth, the one that's not heartless, but I have my breaking points. I'm very sensitive and get my feeling hurt far to often, I'm holding myself up now. So I guess I should be good for another long while. I've got three people I know who love me to death, my Father ((though he barely knows who I am, but constantly tries and I in up shutting him out...sorry Pops...you'll never really know me...I guess)), my Sister ((she's been there for me and without her, I wouldn't be here typing today)), and my Fiance ((he found me hopeless and helpless, well he brought me back to life)). I've lost a lot of my closest friends in the past year, Haley, Ashlyn ((now doesn't want anything to do with me and won't admit it)), not to mention...anyone else years before that. I never really had many friends. Seeing that a person has to sometimes be forced to grow up pretty much on their own being the youngest it was hard on me, my older Brother always got more attention than I did seeing that he was and still is the problem child. I was and still am picked on for being myself, but who am I to be kidding I'm a very odd person, I'm not very talkative in school or out of school, I barely even go outside. I tend to write or draw constantly, when I'm away from my computer. I hate the daytime like most goths...well that's all I have to say for the time being...shedding light on my past...
Kitame the Sinner Community Member 
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