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I don't know what's going on any more.
I feel like I'm losing my friends, like they'd prefer not to be around me these days.
That feeling I wrote about earlier has gotten worse..
It feels like I'm on a tightrope, like one wrong move and I'd be screwed.
It feels like I'm going to lose the ones I keep closest, and once that happens I'm vulnerable.
I feel like breaking down in tear all the time, but I can't.
My family would start worrying and eventually, that would lead to psychiatrists.
I don't think I'm ready for everything that's happening to me.
Or, what might happen anyway.