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i dont know what to do with my life now i just wanna a place i can escape to..... a place i live for ever in. a place that i can call home. this place i reside in.....it just doesnt seem like home anymore. and my sarah.......shes just not the same person anymore. l8ly ive been thinking about things. like how its so hard to plz her sometimes. like it has to b perfect or things dont happen. shes not the emo princess i remmeber. shes just become something else. i mean dont get me wrong i love her and i always will but idk if she will. someday i know ill have to let go of her. this kinda thing cant last 4ever. every day im in pain. every day i cant sleep at night. ever since she left me im just not myself. i try but thats when i think that were still toegether. i made a mistake. and now im paying 4 it. i wish i could take bak everything i said but theres just no way. how can i get bak up after this. theres no one here for me. all thats w8in 4 me is the dust that will soon take over my body.i lost my only one. and theres nothing i can do about it. how can i b happy ever again. this just hurts so bad. this pain is unbearable. i dont even have a reason to wake in the morning anymore. i cant stop these tears. there never ending. i just wish someone could b here 4 me once i can nothing but the pain of my heart......i dont even know if i have one anymore. maybe i tore it out along with hers.i thought i wasnt able to cry anymore but i guess i never hurt as bad as i do now. i cant stand it. i need something anything! so f u c k ing save me from this place. i falling deeper in this dark i created 4 myself. i wish i were free of this. i wish i could b givin closure. but no one can offer me anymore. i have learned that i had many friends but i neglected them so i can b with her. now i have no one. i have no friends. no wife.no life. and i cant kill myself because that will prove that i dont love her and i do love her so i dont want her to think that i dont. this pain i bear is unspeakable.its so unholy,unclean,poison.
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