What is the matter with this thing we call life? I mean seriously could it be more suckish?! Always falling for the wrong people, thinking they're too good for you cause they are. Having feelings for someone but thay don't see you that way. I mean sometimes I just wanna shrivle up and die.
Like falling for one of your best friends, you're too afraid to say anything as not too hurt anything you have and make it aquward between the two of you. Hopeing that they read you pouring your heart out to them in a semi-public forum. Knowing that as they sit there and read it they're going "There's no way this is me" But it is. When they ask you sometime in the next week you lie, say it wasn't them make up some out of this world excuse, and they'll belive you because you're the little actress that can pull almost anything off and make it belivable.
Hell, that's all you seem to do anymore. Make up lies to cover your own a**. Keep the image everyone has of you pure, untainted by the real you. Your freinds trust you with their secreats and you play them off when the one you talk about asks. You've been doing something that your freinds consider taboo for as long as you can remember.
They think that they've changed you in some way, but you know that they only opened the door a bit for you to be more honest with yourself and with them. Sure, they're your best freinds in the worl and they know you better than anyone. But, they don't know the whole you like they think they do. You've kept secrets, lied, cheated, and betrayed them all in one way but they're none the wiser.
I think I'm infratuated with you, I think you've had me hooked since a long time ago. But I won't ever let you know this...not face to face any way...cause if you know me, I'll be that actress and act none the wiser, Lying to protect something I keep dear to me.
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"All of this is but a dream, within a dream"
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"Oh baby, you're a classic like a little black dress"
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"Don't feel bad for the suicide cat, gotta kill themselves nine time before they get it right"
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