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there is one thing that really makes a woman... and thats when she is able to plz a man. not just in a sexual way... but that is part of it. and i learned tonight that i am not a woman. on halloween... lyk 2 months from now... it was going to be the 4th year we were together... and we have been... u know... for a long time. a few years. and tonight i was told that he has had to look @ porn because i could never please him. that hurts so bad... its one of the things that i thought i was really good @... i put everything i had into that. and i did all these things that i thought were things that he would go crazy for... a lot of things that other chicks wouldnt do... well... porn stars yea, but not other chicks. i dont really want to go into detail... cuz no one needs to hear about that. but i did things i never thought i would do. and i did everything he asked me. even if it literally hurt. a few things i did made me cry... but i did them so he would be happy. and then i learn that it wasnt even good, that kills me. think to urself for a min... a woman that CANT PLZ A MAN... what is she supposed to do? can she call herself a woman? im glad he told me... cuz now i know im just for show... and not for performance... lyk those burgers on the tv... no one eats those... they are just to look @ and b pretty... honestly its good that he told me... so now when i am a grown up i can be all "oh no... really... u dont want to buy me a drink, i suck in bed"... and avoid being told that i suck. my ego is so shot... thats the one thing i thought i was really good @.... i wonder what he was thinking about all that time... probably those other chicks. well.... @ least i got pleasure out of it.