i really don't see why josh is going out with me.. i'm nobody i hate myself and i want to die completly i mean all this time i thought that they were the problem but it turns out that it's me.
me, me, me, me.. one of my most biggest fears in the world was that i would end up like my ******** mother who was abusive and didn't give a damn about anyone else. no even herself.. well look at what'shappened i turned into one of the things that i feared the most........ yep you all guessed it. my ******** mom and i really just want all this to be over and done with i really don't want it before i moved here i made everyway possible to hide myself from the worl and then i had jake and then all my other friends and look were it's gotten me i've lost friends family and people that i really loved.. and thought loved me back.. but yeah i'm really stupid. thanks jake thanks john!! i really appreciate it.... yeah were still friends we still care about you oh yeah i see now that we're not ok out you start thinking about me and saying you need me...
i guess what i'm trying to express is that i love you joshua chester bryant!!!
I love you very much and if at anytime i ever do anything to skrew this up i really don't know what i'm going to do with myself. he has shown me love and care and compassion. i think. that... if i was ever to pick a hero.. he would be my number one. i hope that this one is forever!!!
