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I have hit, and beat, and destroyed some sort of brick wall in my mind. I feel.....free. I came to a realization that just through me off my feet. I litterally gasped, and sat thinking for god knows how long. It all makes sense. This world doesnt mean anything.....There is no point to existance. We have no point. Nothing we have has a point. Its all relative to what we want to believe, and what we believe. But most of the time, we end up believing what were told to believe. Music is nothing but sound waves. Sex is nothing but pleasure receptors. Emotions are nothing stimulants in our brain. We are nothing but a collective of cells. We are nothing, trying to make something out of nothing, so that we can understand something we think exists, even though it doesnt. There really is no point to anything. We are no more important then the very grass we tread upon. This makes me feel.....Different. Im seeing everything in a different light. Im still true to my emotions, to myself, to my friends, and everything else, because I WANT to be. Not because its possible as a collective organism. Nothing can exist unless we make it so by our own wants and needs, which dont exist to begin with. Nothing exists, but everything exists......The world makes more sense now.....