Hello all who read My journal of greatness
Well what to say?
you mostly know what I got for christmas and I think my birthday
and lets see whats going on now
two weeks till I start up my fourth semester of college
YES you heard me right all
fourth semester of college
meanning after this semester I will a Sophamore in college
Wow Time flies huh?
I am happy I will say
But I still have a problem in my life that keeps coming back at me
almost as if its a curse
I know I have had many people tell me how to leave that stress behind
but as most of you know I am a nice person and doing that
well
Its really hard for me to do
I mean something inside me tells me yes its should be the right thing to do
But then I feel like I will have this HUGE guilt left on me
its just something that I will have to figure out and make better this year
I just wish to not be so stressed out a lot
i am still on gaia and yet many of my good friends
gaia family memmbers are just leaving
like foxes running out of the den
becuase of humans finding there home
but when the humans are gone and some return
but slowly
Little
by little they all vanish
That is something I really miss a WHOLE lot
The role plays
the sparing and trainning
the people I became really close to and trust
I mean I know a lot of those people have there own lives to do
and they have more than just BE on gaia to worry about
*sighs*
its just
I know it sounds dumb but
its like a soul scare or something
but I can still remeber being in 1st grade
I was a very popular child with others
they come to me for advice
help
have fun with
I was dragged around a lot
but then the next year
One by One
each kid changed there mines about me
pushed and shoved me in the dirt
say things that are not true about me
talk about me behind there backs
all of them vanished and dissappeared
I was left with maybe 5 friends to talk to
and being in cave creek
we had way to many that the schools would be OVER filled with kids
and till now it hurts me
toi see those I care for
just kinda vanish
brings back those days to me again
but then again I guess thats just some of my life story
I bet others have worse than mine to go with
anyway yeah best to be off of that subject I gather now huh?
what eles can I say
Oh I am still now trying to get the OLD den Up and going once more
Gain back the glory of role play and the glory of its people to come back to the den
and then!
Just then
maybe the role play can be started up again and life
who knows will come back to normal the way we all see it?
Maybe maybe not i dunno
If any of my friends are out there who read this
I still want ya to know
you are still in my heart even as of NOW
I wish to hear from you guys soo much
and I want all of us to make a single thread for us to hang in and have the best of fun
Just like always !
You are all ijn my heart and I wanted you to all know that
and I guess as a Last thing to say
.. could I ask for you all to make a 2006 first comments in my journal?
I would really appreaciate if I heard what you all had to say
Thanks
~Kanami~( out)
Well what to say?
you mostly know what I got for christmas and I think my birthday
and lets see whats going on now
two weeks till I start up my fourth semester of college
YES you heard me right all
fourth semester of college
meanning after this semester I will a Sophamore in college
Wow Time flies huh?
I am happy I will say
But I still have a problem in my life that keeps coming back at me
almost as if its a curse
I know I have had many people tell me how to leave that stress behind
but as most of you know I am a nice person and doing that
well
Its really hard for me to do
I mean something inside me tells me yes its should be the right thing to do
But then I feel like I will have this HUGE guilt left on me
its just something that I will have to figure out and make better this year
I just wish to not be so stressed out a lot
i am still on gaia and yet many of my good friends
gaia family memmbers are just leaving
like foxes running out of the den
becuase of humans finding there home
but when the humans are gone and some return
but slowly
Little
by little they all vanish
That is something I really miss a WHOLE lot
The role plays
the sparing and trainning
the people I became really close to and trust
I mean I know a lot of those people have there own lives to do
and they have more than just BE on gaia to worry about
*sighs*
its just
I know it sounds dumb but
its like a soul scare or something
but I can still remeber being in 1st grade
I was a very popular child with others
they come to me for advice
help
have fun with
I was dragged around a lot
but then the next year
One by One
each kid changed there mines about me
pushed and shoved me in the dirt
say things that are not true about me
talk about me behind there backs
all of them vanished and dissappeared
I was left with maybe 5 friends to talk to
and being in cave creek
we had way to many that the schools would be OVER filled with kids
and till now it hurts me
toi see those I care for
just kinda vanish
brings back those days to me again
but then again I guess thats just some of my life story
I bet others have worse than mine to go with
anyway yeah best to be off of that subject I gather now huh?
what eles can I say
Oh I am still now trying to get the OLD den Up and going once more
Gain back the glory of role play and the glory of its people to come back to the den
and then!
Just then
maybe the role play can be started up again and life
who knows will come back to normal the way we all see it?
Maybe maybe not i dunno
If any of my friends are out there who read this
I still want ya to know
you are still in my heart even as of NOW
I wish to hear from you guys soo much
and I want all of us to make a single thread for us to hang in and have the best of fun
Just like always !
You are all ijn my heart and I wanted you to all know that
and I guess as a Last thing to say
.. could I ask for you all to make a 2006 first comments in my journal?
I would really appreaciate if I heard what you all had to say
Thanks
~Kanami~( out)
Community Member
I know the feeling you have. I have it, too. I hate losing people, so I try to not make many friends. And I know what it's like to be used. *whimpers softly* But as you once told me, you gotta be strong. You gotta rise above all that, and get on with your life, because it will get better. If you have faith, and P.U.S.H. <Pray Until Something Happens>