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life is "bleh" to me right now. im so angry and sad alot for some reason. im angry for alot of reasons. One being, not a single boy has asked me out in....years. except one, but i really dont count that one. im also mad because im trying to loose weight and its just not working, i look at all these gurls around me and their like straight all the way down, i mean like looking at them from the front and i just wish i looked like that, im sick of hearing them complain "oh im so fat" its dumb, i mean, i've lost 10 pounds since summer started but now i weigh 143, and thats still heavy to me, or medium atleast. i mean im tall, im like 5'7, 5'8, and my mom is always telling me "thats why u weigh that amount" and yes, thats part of it, but not all of it. I also cant put on make up right, like mascara and eye shadow, thats easy, but like eyeliner (which i dont wear alot of the time) or umm, whats it called?? oh yea! foundation. i dont get that stuff. Ppl say i dont need it,and now that i think about it, i dont. I also hate my hair, i wish my bangs like swung in front of my face instead of beside my face -.- i have hardly anything to do with my hair now..
im sad bcuz i feel lonely, as i mentioned b4, no boy has ever asked me out b4, and i dont think anyone will, i feel so ugly around everyone else. I also feel like i hang out with ppl that are way more popular then me, usually sum ppl only talk to me bcuz ti hang out with the popular ones, or the funny ones, etc..
I mean, it just hurts when u hear sum1 say "lets wait for 'so and so', oh yea, taylor, i forgot u were there" and sumtimes they dont even say that. sumtimes ppl never say anything to me, they'd rather talk to my friend.
Maybe i feel this way bcuz im a teenager. Or maybe ( as my mom would say) god has a plan for me, and this is part of it. if so, i will just have to suffer through it for now =/....