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i mess up my whole life. i always have. my life is just sad. oh but you think you will always have a great life but you wont. your friendship will mess up and your happiness will turn to sadness. i wanted my whole life to be the greatest time of my life but it isnt. i wanted a friend to have until i die. i wont because i will mess that whole thing up. i can be rude, i can be sad , and i can be nice but i will never be happy. even if i think i am. im writing this now because i messed my friendship. i dont no how. i guess i dont know what friends are. i think i do but i dont.everyone is rude to me. i hate it and they hate me. they say they are my friend but they are not. people say alot of things but they lie. i want to say this to my friend. if she reads this.
i no you think your cool.
but your really just a fool.
i tired to your friend,
but you disappointed me in the end
at my party you said you didnt want to see my friends
so you said you were sad instead.
i dont no why you thinnk i was laughing at you
when i really laughing with you
we had are good and bad times and now were at are worse
but i really hate when your with me and you curse
im tired of you bossing me around
you make me feel like my head is in the ground
you always hold me back from life, and you always stub me in the back with a knife.
so goodbye, i will tell you face to face,
from first through fifth...
all of these years were a waste
love, miranda