damn ya'll one day i was at my school till 11something. no food. nothing. i just sat and waited. i'm not gonna put my s**t n someone else.
i can't even get a job. noone wants to hire a teenage cripple but goodwill and there's none within distance to me.
i haven't had a real smile since god knows when.
i'm force to look at my ex everygod damn day and it kills me every sec.
if i had money i'd prolly buy me a pack of cigs and a dollar something.
my friends are the best but...hell i can't hang out with them anymore.
i can't really do anything.
i can drive. but not legally. can't afford the damn school when i can't afford my .40cent luch everyday.
even if i could drive. i don't have a car nor gas money.
i miss my father so much....i'd prolly feel like s**t if i was living with him but he wouldn't let me live lik this.
he wouldn't make fun of me and my me ness
he wouldn't talk about as soon as i leave the room.
as poor as he is he'd make sure i was set for life.
saddly. i don't see him much yet i know he loves me more than anyone else i know
i wish that wasn't true but hey. i can't have everything right.
i mean. i got a phone ....and some tea...one cig...and uh. these's ppls computer..
so i think i'm donig pretty damn good.
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