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How Obtuse
I'm finally able to wear my hair up in an actual ligit ponytail now. There are still a few ends in the back that hang down so I still need a second ponytail but I'm really happy at how long my hair has grown thus far. I look forward to having long hair again, kinda like I'm going to be able to turn back time inside of me. I am going farther than far. I am going to another beginning. Another year is coming. Another full moon is coming as well. I cheer them on. I coax them forward with each night.
I made the club volleyball team, I foget if I mentioned it on here or not. We had two days of tryouts. A ton of girls showed up the first day and about half of them didn't return the second day. There were no cuts. It was weird. There was only one cut, for the final descicion of who was on the team or not. We have 17 girls on our team. Volleyball is going to be amazing. Right now it has all the drills and feel of high school. Best part of it, the girls are different. Everyone loves volleyball. They all are motivated to play. They all came for one reason: to play. They don't need scholarships or plan to make a living with it, as far as I know anyway. they are much nicer, less cliquish and kinda loosy goosy at the same time as they are serious. I love it...
I have felt good this week in general. I finally rounded up enough guts to write a letter to Dev. I drew a picture on both sides, one of the best pictures I have drawn in a long time. Though, I think the style I am playing around with right now is really damn good. That's off the point, the pic was of me, animeized, crying. I wrote the letter on top of it. I just hope it reaches her. Ugh, I tried talking about it to a counselor and to a friend and they both took it the wrong way. "Why are you friends with her?" "Are you going to keep letting her treat you that way?" LOOK, YOU'VE GOT IT WRONG! I know she's old enough now that she's not a kid anymore but still... that doesn't mean I need to persecute me for ignoring me for a little while. I'm her friend not her lover or her pet. A friend. I'm there to serve her when she needs me. But, the other side is that, she needs to be there to serve me too cause... I needed her. I needed her so badly that month. I needed her. Not anyone else. No one else I think could grasp the words I wanted to hear or say what I needed. I know it's unfair and a heavy burden but, I needed her like she needed that box opened. It was bad. And now I'm just trying to fix where I got hurt. No one seems to understand how much she means to me. She is my friend and until she says "I don't want to be friends. Don't talk to me anymore" I am going to believe in her!
I almost beat Tales of Symphonia. I didn't have the heart to beat it without the 100% yet. I still want the extra dungeon, all the summon spirits, monster list and the Devil's arms. On the plus side, I found all the dogs with Collette and got all the recipes <3 YES!
Hannah and I have been having a rough patch.... again. Yes, the super b***h roommate is at it again.... -sigh- She's mad at me for two little things. The rest is basically her putting all her frustration from school, work, and her boyfriend on me. Yup. She's a b***h.
Ho-hum. I have a sore throat right now, prolly just allergies though. Yesterday was really windy and I get seasonal allergies. So prolly allergies, I hope so at least. I don't wanna be sick.
I joined a roleplay and um, have my first test this week? Next week I have Anthropology test. I'm just hoping I offically get into that class before Monday. I wanna make sure I am buying the book for a class I'll actually be in. On the downer side, I am starting to dread my English class. We are analyzing Emily Dickinson's poems. I really like them but hate analyzing every bit. It kills the beauty of poetry. Bleck!
I am looking forward to later this week cause Imma gonna make QUICHE! YAY! It will have cheddar cheese, spinach, mushrooms, and even SAUSAGE! Yesh! MUSHROOMS! Ugh, I want pizza too >3
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