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How Could They Do That To ME?!?!?!!?!? crying (L) Part 1 (L)

Date: Fri. Oct. 9, 2009.

Ok. I am am like SOOOO shy exccept when I'm around my friends and there is this new kid Adam at my school...I try to be nice to him but he doesn't talk! Yesterday I said I loved him... sweatdrop I literally straight up told him : I love you. * But in Japanese: Skee & I koikokoro you* and today my sorta friend Sara went up to him and asked him out for me! I said *NOT TO HER* but to my other friend that she can tell Adam I like him, and I had no idea Sara had asked him out! And even more every time Adam was mentioned my face went BEET red. sweatdrop I didn't know I could blush, really. crying So Sara and her friend Alisha were literally DRAGGING, stare holding my wrists, me up to Adam. I screamed and cried. sweatdrop crying I was like at his knees being held to my will! *cry* AND Adam's friend was dragging him to me! APARRENTLY he likes me! But...Alisha told me he said: "I don't believe in young love" I seriously think that is SO romantic but....I was jittery all the rest of the day (just science and P.E. after recess) and every time I saw him through the halls I avoided him, and I practically walked into him once! I looked up and I hurried away. I HAVE BEEN THINKIN BOUT SUICIDE (REALLY) FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. My life sucks. And because of Adam now I'm (or was...) happy. But he litterally broke my heart. I just want to know that I'm loved in life, and that there is a reason not to give up. crying cry crying cry crying cry