I sit here in sadness, not expecting sympathy but wanting it just the same. I have felt so selfish in my pity. Praying for death 1 minute and fearing it the next. I don wanna die. I ask only '1' thing is to b 'happy' I was told by a few to take treasure in the small things and i have tried, and other people tell me to 'find' happiness by stop looking for it. I don know who I am anymore. From what I have been told I look like I'm 28, I act like I'm 18, I have a very pretty smile. Beautiful red hair. And a nice tushy, I'm a little bit on the big side but doesn't seem to bother most, artistic, silly, shy and flirtatious, and pretty. Then why do all my friends abandon me eventually???
Lady NightFire Community Member 
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