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Are things getting better wor worse?

My match has once again proven itself anything but that. She has proven completely disloyal and above all never cared. I've used the phrase "you never cared" with alot of people but she has toped that off by far. Tells me she loves me in the morning, and adios that night.

She dumped me for another guy (nothing new there) and this is by far the best guy yet. My other exs boyfriend could never stick for him self against me and I could always shove his face in the dirt over a text. This new guy, oh no, he begged her not to give me his number. Grade A p**** right there.

I got over her fairly quickly even though she connectd with me the best out of my three halucinations. So are things getting better or worse? The gals I pick are getting worse but my emotions arent as stirrable. Is this getting more good? or more bad?

I am nothing but loyal. I go out of my way everyday of a relationship to be loyal. I do the most unneccasary things, just to prove my loyaly even when no one is around. Why then must no one be the same way? Why must loyalty be missing in this sea of confusion and tempation? Am I the only loyal person left?

I need a companion but not any. I am not desprate, but when will happiness come? Do I wait or search? Do I wait to miss my oppertunity? Or do I choose to hunt for something more valuable than what can be taken?