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I wonder these days if I am going insane... and if insanity may be my best course of action.... "After all, when all the world is after you, where is the best place to hide?"- Riddler "IN SANITY!!!"-Joker
I feel so alone, as if there is simply no one to understand me.
So many problems to address, and no one to address them too... I feel very sad all of the time.
Should I feel these things at 25?
Does thinking I am the last sane and rational person on Earth make me insane, or does acting exactly like a crazy person is expected to act make me perfectly normal?
I feel I have the ideas for answers to ALL of the worlds problems and questions, and yet cannot get them to the world to help anyone... is that craziness, or utter sanity?
I know the answers to religion, the answers to poverty and sickness... or do I? Though no one wants to listen to them, and dismisses them as fantasy. Why should my thoughts and ideas be any less valid than those of a more recognized name?
I could very well be right you know!
Galileo and MANY of the greatest thinkers of all time were thought to be insane too, and we all know how that ended for nearly all of em....
It is a truly frightening thing to confront ones own thought and feelings, and lay them bare for an uncaring and crazy world to perceive, but I simply cannot hold them in any longer!
Does anyone else but me know what it is like to be broken hearted for what seems like eternity?
To most assuredly know the answers to questions and debates, but have no one to understand or share with?
This question is of course posed with the exception of therapists, as they want to PRETEND to care and listen, then medicate you to within an inch of sanity and lock you away from the conformist thinking world... only to force feed you the idea that conformity is the only course of action.
All this in the name of less progress, ecumenical politics and hypocrisy.
Want to know my ideas on the answer to all life, science, and religion???
Here goes...
There IS no answer... not for Mankind, and not at this moment most certainly!
Everything we know and believe is based upon the feeble understanding and quantification of human beings. What human beings DON'T know could fill a list stretching from here to Eternity and beyond.
Just because we cannot understand, quantify, or contain something, does not negate its existence or purpose.
And things we THINK we can understand and see should not automatically become THE ANSWER within our minds!
Nothing that we say can be proven by a power higher than ourselves, because most of us do not believe in a higher power anymore... and honestly, that is like looking at a masterpiece in a museum, and believing that it got there by happenstance and coincidence.
There was a hand behind the brush that painted that masterpiece people, or sculpted the statue you see...
I am not saying that religion is right by ANY means, because religion is EVIL..
It is FAITH that is right... HOPE.... not scare tactics devised by MAN, and NOT a benevolent almighty, infinitely loving God that are the untainted theological path.
Religion claims to have the answers, and that is pure blasphemy by its own laws and belief system... for to claim to know the definitive answers, is to claim to know the mind and will of God, and by extension, claim to BE God.... Blaspemy by religious accounts, last time I checked.
We CANNOT know the answers, because we CANNOT prove definitively what is right.
By contrast, science has become an atrocity, and an affront to the betterment of humankind.
Science claiming to know the answers is bullsh*t, and halts the progress of humanity completely.
1+1 ONLY equals 2 because we SAY it does, but it has been postulated MANY times, that 1 and 2 are actually the SAME thing, observed from different points.
People speak of Black Holes in DEFINITIVE terms, but we cannot reach or see them, so they can only be speculative THEORY!
Science tries endlessly to disprove the existence of a supreme being, by claiming a Big Bang.. and yet we CANNOT explain or define the Singularity from which the Big Bang came from. Our much vaunted Physics COMPLETELY break down when trying to explain the singularity of a black hole... so why would ANY scientist claim to know definitive answers to the beggining of the UNIVERSE!?
Is science not supposed to be the OPEN MINDED search for knowledge?
How can one BE a scientist, if they have closed their minds to even ONE possibility? A group of people who are supposed to better mankind, and they cannot even solve the simplest problems we have!
World hunger is a problem you say?
You see these people in Ethiopia starving you say?? ( Mind you, I have Ethiopian friends, and they have readily informed me those people on TV are stupid for living in barren lands and bad areas )
THEY LIVE IN A FU**ING DESERT!
Nothing grows there, and never will in their lifetime! At least not with the technology afforded to them...
Do as Sam Kinison suggested, send them NO MORE FOOD, send them a fu**ing U-Haul, and move them to where the food is!!! Mass exodus IS an answer for those people, NOT pennies a freaking day!
You see?
So many thoughts... so much anger and frustration... in one person.
What am I to do?
Slip into sweet madness? Let go this mortal coil?
Where is one to turn when they believe the world collapsing in around them?
... *sigh*...
I have so much more to say, and yet no one to understand or listen.
If you have read this, then bless ya... if you had no patience, then you have proven my worst thoughts of humanity....
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