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wow cant believe in 2 days its christmas.... there has been alot of s**t that has happened this month. well let me see some memories i can thing of off the top of my head...hmmm well my step dads brother tryed to malest me when i was sleeping...... bad..I KNOW and well i got a new bf who i love alot everyday on the bus i always lay on him. i like it alo becosue its been a while sence i could be so close with anyone. my last relationships only wanted some a**...*ahem* i know he might but damn hes like a best friend. there hasnt been a moment where we kissed yet but i want to so bad.
a couple weeks later i got grounded for 3 weeks becouse of a dumb a** reson here it is.. it was 10 and my mom kept tellin me to go take a bath and i kept puttin it off and well i went to bed and i said " o wat the hell i can fall asleep when im takin a long nice bath" and i did and came out and got bitched at bye well my moms bf.and then befor me and johnny started going out way befor the bath thing i was on a chat rooma dn my mom grounded me for that. but i manage to sneek on.
I found out that my best friends moving to ohio. and well on wed. i got on the bus wanted to cuddle up with my bf befor i got out of school and maybe go for my first kiss with him and well "fat a**" was sittin with him so i got pisssed becouse he knows i sit with him. and well they was talkin bout damn dildos and i didnt laugh at any of his jokes and just sat there bye myself lookin at the window.i found out that he tryed to get him out of his seat so i could sit with him. and tonight on the 23rd johnny ( my bf) came over to drop my brother off from band prtice (there in a band) and i walked johnny into the living rooma nd put my arm aroun his wait. and damnit there was another moment!
things will look up and i know it. o ya and again on the 23rd my step dads bro the one that tryed touching me came over and hes 41 and has 2 kids and married and when i was home alone came in dropped off our christmas s**t and sat down beside me and asked why i was so damn quit......now tell me that isnt the ******** stupedest damn questin you can ask a person after you touched there boobs when they were sleeping. so i walked off into the bathroom and called my mom and he left. .. some times i hoep that son of a b***h dies.