I tried to kill my pain
But only brought more,
so much more.
I lay, pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, pretending
Am I too lost
To be saved?
Am I too gone?
My God, my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do You Remember Me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
And will you regret me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost
To be saved?
Have I gone?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
since I'll be denied.
I'll have My Tourniquet,
My suicide
But only brought more,
so much more.
I lay, pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, pretending
Am I too lost
To be saved?
Am I too gone?
My God, my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Do You Remember Me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
And will you regret me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost
To be saved?
Have I gone?
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
since I'll be denied.
I'll have My Tourniquet,
My suicide
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Right so I thought I'd put little explanations at the bottom of my Songs/Poems now...This One, for me, is About how much happier I was a year ago, even though I was way, heavily suicidal, I was happy, with me, I suppose, I could just say ******** you, to whoever... and being me, decided to fix things, while only making them worse, now I have friends =/ and other...relationships, and I miss when it was just Me, and my two bestfriends, Isela, and Kellie, but now... stress, and lots of it.. things were easier when I honestly did not care, because I figured I would just kill my self after school that day... its also about, how God had impacted me, in the sense that I know he could kill me, yet chooses not too.....
"My wounds cry for the grave" -I want to die [obviously]
"My soul cries for deliverance" -my eternal souls cries for death, whether I am to be delivered to heaven or a hell, I just want to be dead.
"Since I will be denied, I'll have my Tourniquet, My Suicide" -Since I will be denied of my death wish, I'll carry it out myself.
"My God, my tourniquet" Saying that God could be my Tourniquet, in the sense that a Tourniquet is used to severely cut of circulation to a limb, thus resulting in the limb being amputated. Except, He could easily cut of circulation to me entire body, thus having me dead.
"Will you be on the other side? And will you regret me?" - Pretty much asking if I will go to Heaven, which I doubt, or If I will go to Hell, meaning God regretting creating me...
"I lay, pouring crimson regret and betrayal" -Easy to explain, Me slitting my wrists...
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Yeah, you told me you miss hanging out with me.......but.....Oh my god....And just so you know, i'm not pittying you.....i know you don't like that.....[i think] O_O'
yeah......