Not too much happened today. Whore-fest, though XP But I'm not going to say anything about it, really, because then I get people telling me off and that makes me feel so emo that I just wanna write crappy songs and whine them all the way through XDDDD
Except: I did find out Tavarez will PAY money to see my thong strap o.o
I'm so gosh-damn adorable XDDDDD
Still trying to find the money, time, and initiative to do something with my hair......so bored with it XDDD Which is really pathetic, cos I think it actually looks nice (part of the time anyhow). Daaaaaaaamn I'm just a dumbass XDDD
Random stuff I just want to list:
-Getting my eyebrow pierced this summer (can't have it at school or I'd have it already)
-Tomorrow is a three-month deal with Brandon o.o
-Not doing anything as far as I know but that may change
-Possibly getting a digicam soon......Brandon says he'll get it for me, but I feel really bad about that, so I'm trying to get it myself. It's really cool, and it's only like $20 <33333333 Shipping included, yaaaaaaay
EDIT:
I just typed 100 confessions up on LJ, but i don't feel like putting them here. So:
SHELBY'S MOST SERIOUS CONFESSIONS
I hate being ignored.
I hate when people are mad at me.
I hate drunks.
I hate losers.
I hate whiners.
I hate being scared.
I'm scared almost all of the time.
Pregnant women scare me really badly because I wonder if they'll ******** their children over.
I'm scared of spiders.
Yes, I'm scared of the Boogey man, closet monsters, and things hiding under my bed.
Clowns scare me.
I'm scared of drunks.
I'm scared of getting high.
I'm scared I'm going to lose control.
I'm scared I'll end up old and alone.
NO, I don't wanna grow up.
I'm scared you'll stop loving me if I express myself.
I want to be loved.
I want to belong.
I want to have someone who loves me.
I want a digital camera.
I want money.
I want to be less paranoid.
I want to be hugged.
I want to be forgiven for everything.
I love when people notice me.
I love when I'm loved.
I love attention.
I love gossip.
I love getting email, mail, comments...etc.
I love candy.
I wish I was pretty.
I wish I was skinny.
I wish I was funny.
I wish I was smarter.
I wish I could sing.
I wish I could dance.
I wish I had more general talents.
If you've read this, please, please, PLEASE take notice of all of it. Every little detail. That is, if you care. I don't care what you may be thinking.....because for every insecurity and paranoia i have, I'm sure you have at least one. Everyone wants to be loved and noticed.....so this is my way :shrug: Deal with it or tell me that you want out of my life.
 Tsukichi · Fri Jan 20, 2006 @ 09:32pm · 4 Comments |
