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when other guys are fantasizing about f**king the girl who sits in front of them in their first class of the day...

I'm fantasizing about the girl I love saying things like: "I love you too" or even, "I do"

Should I be fantasizing about f**king her?

I don't ever want to f**k...

I want to make love.

I don't want a "one night stand"

I want to be able to stand to look at myself every night.

is that so wrong?


My dad always says things like "When you leave her" it pisses me off...

I would never leave.

My dad looks at the girls from my school and makes rude and disgusting things...

I can't ever tell if he's joking or not.

I just want to scream at him.


"You're married!! How can you even look at those girls?! Don't you love your wife?!"

I want to punch him in the forehead and yell at him

"Why would you even say those things about them?!"

I bet that he didn't even marry Marcie because he loves her.

I bet he married her because he knows that she's the best he's gonna get.

It disgusts me when he talks about how he wishes he could "Tear into a piece of that a**." or makes sounds like an idiotic horny animal.

While he wants to go and f**k everyone and his wife at the same time, I want to hold my one girl and feel wanted.

Is that really so wrong?

it seems like all the other guys in the world want to f**k the world...

am I really so weird because I love only one girl?

because I want to spend my life loving that one girl?

because I don't see other girls like I see that one girl?

*sigh*