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This Is My Bordness
Ma Poems, and Songs... and junk....
Lies, Effects And Overdramatics
When the shirt came off, well it was all in time
When an m-m-m-minute turned into a mile
And I broke that grin, and I cut it out
And I think you caught on by the taste of your sin
When I mentioned blue, all you thought was color
When you mentioned drugs, all I thought was sober
Turn my taunting off and it all turned over
When you mentioned blue

Kill
Smile
Cut it out for me this time
Smile, haven't seen her smile in a while

Keep the mask aligned
Getting up in time
There's a space between valleys
And try catch a vibe
Make a circle square
A rectangle curve

Use a 'smile' as a noun and 'I think' like a verb

Run quick switch sides
Spill the filled up canister
And the room is shaking
Now you're changing places
And I switched my pace
And the breathing races
when you mentioned blue

Kill
Smile
Cut it out for me this time
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while

This is not,
This is not,
This is not,
This is not happening....
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while

Kill
Smile
Cut it out for me
Cut it, cut. it. out.
Smile
Kill
Cut it out for me
Cut it, cut. it out

When you mention blue,
I'll cut it out

Kill
Smile
Cut it out for me this time
Smile, haven't seen her smile in a while


This is not,
This is not,
This is not,

This is not happening....
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while

Break it up,
Break it up,
All I can do is stay awake...

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.....well I'm just gonna explain this word for word....
1st Stanza-
1st & 2nd line: Well, basically it says I kind of expected something to go wrong,
because something always does, my last two boyfriends, one cheated on me
with my ******** best friend and the other was abusive [I'm sure u all know that story though.]

3rd line: I didn't have much faith in it lasting to begin with, but it worked somehow?

4th & 5th line: It's saying how the truth makes a smile fade, as in the lies make a smile fade, then goes on to say how guilt feels, and realization also comes with guilt, because you know you are wrong...

6th, 7th, 8th, & 9th: meaning blue can mean sad, and blue is also the color of Jagger's eyes, so the color blue has alot of meaning for me. The drugs part is completely metaphorical, its just saying the I wish I wasn't sober when I had heard this, like, "why am I still sober?." Taunting means teasing so, its saying, I stopped joking around then. Just again about the color blue.

Chorus:
It's saying how I would like to kill, whether it be myself or him, but instead, I'll just say ******** it and paint on a fake smile. And again how lies take away your smile,
after I knew it was like he "cut out my smile." Last part is, how looking in the mirror is like looking at how pathetic I am, when I thought maybe, just maybe things would change, though they didn't obviously... The this is not happening part is self explanatory right?

2nd Stanza-
1st & 2nd line: Keeping the mask aligned without letting anyone see the person behind it. Then it says getting up, metaphorically saying you'll forget about it sooner-or-later.

3rd & 4th line: Theres a space between valleys means that I'm in between choices, and I don't really know what to do right now, cause I couldn't just let it go, but then is was all waste. Catching vibes is like reading minds, I'm asking him to try to read my ******** mind.

5th & 6th line: Basically saying, I wish I could do the impossible, by changing things.

7th: Pretty much saying there's no way to explain without sounding like a douche-bag... xD

3rd Stanza:
1st - 6th line: 1st is saying how, you can pretend like it's all fine and good but it still happened and its pretty ******** up that it did happen...Goes on to say how He told the truth, and now everything's shaken and a huge wreck, how he went from amazing to awful that quickly in my eyes...

7th line: again just about the color blue...

Chorus----

And the end is about how I'd like to break everything in sight, our relationship, my mind, I considered overdosing actually, cutting, whatever I could do to do damage to me, and everything else, I just want to break, and shatter, and die...
and then goes on to say how I couldn't sleep at all cause I was too upset...The End!






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1so_so11rry_ari11
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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 12, 2009 @ 08:28pm
-hugs tightly-
i love it and its depressing in a way
....dont let douches get in your way okay
these are just obsticles for the best thing
I love you ^^


commentCommented on: Sat Nov 14, 2009 @ 12:08am
wow savannah.....its really sad...and yet i cant help but love it <3
it expresses some of my feelings....like about life and guys and love...i really like it.
but i dont think youve ever told me about ur abusive bf.....



yaoifangurl4eva
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