Killing me, destroying me...
Don't get on my ******** case about this I WILL not listen to anything you say.
Don't give any of that, "suck it up life isn't fair" bullshit.
I know that. That's why I'm ranting here in my journal.
I have the right to rant and act like a ******** little selfish teen if I want too.
Also, I will NOT being seeing NEW MOON.
All my texts/calls have been about that.
Don't ask me.
D<
You know sometimes I wish that I could get away from everything and everyone. Sadly it won't ever happen.
Today was a pretty good day from the beginning and now I just want it to end.
I want to end a friendship with a certain someone. I was too chicken to tell him everything though I want to by the end of the night. I can't deal with him in my life. I won't have someone always saying "I love you" to me. Honestly you can't tell me that. You don't know me and I dislike when people say that. Also when you keep saying it, it kills it. There no meaning behind the word.
Besides from wanting to end that friendship I want to end one more as well. I pretty much know I will not be getting anything from it. It's more like one of those "force friendship."
I'm worried about school. I know what my problem is but I wish I had someone to "scare" or give me a good talking too. Sadly, it has came to that. I'm planning to work on everything tomorrow and force myself. What else am I going to do? Not to mention I'm trying to get myself another job while going to school. I'm pretty much broke and I need money for school. D;
Bill asked me if I wanted to see him during the summer. 3 months instead of a month when I was younger. There no way I want to see that man. I'd probably end up doing something stupid just to get myself out there. He even ask if I wanted a phone since he thinks I don't "own" one. I want nothing from that man. ... it's funny how he's trying to be the "number one father" I'd like to call BS on that one.
When my mother got home she found out my brother didn't go to his seven period all week. I kind of knew it but it's not like really pay attention to it. I don't pay attention to the clock. Anyways at the end she started yelling at me for all my mistakes that I made. I'm nothing but a failure. I should just get myself "knock up" and move out what she basically telling me. Which made me feel even worst about myself. Thanks mom for making me feel like s**t once again.
Don't give any of that, "suck it up life isn't fair" bullshit.
I know that. That's why I'm ranting here in my journal.
I have the right to rant and act like a ******** little selfish teen if I want too.
Also, I will NOT being seeing NEW MOON.
All my texts/calls have been about that.
Don't ask me.
D<
You know sometimes I wish that I could get away from everything and everyone. Sadly it won't ever happen.
Today was a pretty good day from the beginning and now I just want it to end.
I want to end a friendship with a certain someone. I was too chicken to tell him everything though I want to by the end of the night. I can't deal with him in my life. I won't have someone always saying "I love you" to me. Honestly you can't tell me that. You don't know me and I dislike when people say that. Also when you keep saying it, it kills it. There no meaning behind the word.
Besides from wanting to end that friendship I want to end one more as well. I pretty much know I will not be getting anything from it. It's more like one of those "force friendship."
I'm worried about school. I know what my problem is but I wish I had someone to "scare" or give me a good talking too. Sadly, it has came to that. I'm planning to work on everything tomorrow and force myself. What else am I going to do? Not to mention I'm trying to get myself another job while going to school. I'm pretty much broke and I need money for school. D;
Bill asked me if I wanted to see him during the summer. 3 months instead of a month when I was younger. There no way I want to see that man. I'd probably end up doing something stupid just to get myself out there. He even ask if I wanted a phone since he thinks I don't "own" one. I want nothing from that man. ... it's funny how he's trying to be the "number one father" I'd like to call BS on that one.
When my mother got home she found out my brother didn't go to his seven period all week. I kind of knew it but it's not like really pay attention to it. I don't pay attention to the clock. Anyways at the end she started yelling at me for all my mistakes that I made. I'm nothing but a failure. I should just get myself "knock up" and move out what she basically telling me. Which made me feel even worst about myself. Thanks mom for making me feel like s**t once again.
...Your words are deadly weapons
...Scatter my brains across the wall
...Scatter my brains across the wall
