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Man...Life just ********' sucks...

I know this sounds incredibly emo of me, but I don't give a damn right now. We all have our bad days, and well...This is one of the for me...

Not all too sure where to begin...I suppose that I'm just sick and tired of being alone...To see all around me in relationships. It's painful...But I have no other choice, but to tolerate it...And I can't show my true feelings about it cause no-one cares. Again, not to sound emo, however it's the truth. In this world, only person one should look after is themself...However...I just don't feel that way...I feel like I need someone there to care about, and visa versa...Yet it seems like only a oneway street, right now...

"Better to give than to receive."

Sure, but still...to always have concern and love for others, yet get nothing remotely like love back is just...Well, no longer do I find it all that shocking...I mean, it's gone on for quite some time...Why should someone break tradition like that...? I hope you can sense the sarcasm...Then again, there is no emotion behind typed words, so whatever...


As for other issues; still no word from my brother...For all those who don't know, he's out in Utah for some...behavior issues...Even though he's not related to me by blood or law, he still is my brother...But yeah...It's been a couple weeks, and nothing...

Wonder if he's forgotten bout his big bro...Whatever...if he has moved on, then so be it. He has a free will and can choose as he wishes. I'm just there as a friend...


Only as a friend...to all...

I still can't get over the relationship thing...All I am to people is a friend...Nothing more...perhaps less, but nothing more...It's just hurtful that no-one can see themself on such terms...not even Rebecca...She...well, I guess she sees through me...not even...At least she would notice me...I mean, she doesn't really see me at all, I suppose, on that level of relationship...I've even told her several times that I love her; and it's true. I seriously do love her, but...Well, I guess if she doesn't feel te same way back...then there is no point in persuing something that would never be...