I have offically committed emotional suicide.
I've never hurt this bad in my life. I feel betrayed, unwanted, confused, frustrated...
I've been trying to keep busy, and happy, but I can't seem to let go of the thought that he still cares, so I carry on, wishing for an apology that seems to be fading into the dismal darkness every second.
I'm scared. v.v
So, please, comment. Give me words of encouragement, words of wisdom, advice on how to tread through this era. I cannot be strong without you guys.
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I miss you like there will be no tomorrow and wonder how you are holding up all the time. Even during the most odd moments. My mind is like a trap in which I cannot escape. My friends, and especially you who has always been there for me, are constantly on my mind. I miss my happy 'Manda. I miss my happy little muffin.
I am at..complete lack of wording as to what to say to you regarding Sam. I know it will be nothing you have not already heard before, but I will say it again. If he cares about you as much as he says he does ( or at least did at one point ) he will find it within him to come back. If you are being tortured over it, imagine how he must be feeling. Even though he may not show it.
I love you, Manda. I hope you are doing well, and I am kicking myself for missing you online earlier.
- Sarah.