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Lying alone in bed, I wonder…
Do you ever think of me before you sleep?
Do you even call my name when you miss me?
Because I do, I really miss you.
Because I do, and I know this is true.
When will I learn to stop.
When will I ever grow up?
I am in love with the past.
Im so stuck.
I can’t seem to figure how to stand up.
I wish it was easy as setting aside my things.
I could burn all your pictures but your face still clear.

I can still remember how you said you’ll never go.
You used to teased me that I was the star of your show.
and I thought I was.
I believed in all your bluffs…
and right now I’m stuck in this empty dream house.

I don’t want to feel this way!
I feel so small, so helpless…
like a dust on a wall…
and you can’t see me calling on your name.
How did you, how can you…
Please tell me why…

You were my friend…
I trusted you with everything.
I never thought that you would do this to me.
How can you afford to see me cry,
and left me there as if I was never part of your life…

The moment you said goodbye,
You never said the words I wish I could hear..
You let me go like that..
and from that day on, I promised myself…
I will never love you again..

Now I’m leaving.
I finally found a way out of my childhood fantasy.
I found myself sleeping too long.
It’s time to face reality that you’ll never come back..
or even if you do, it woudn’t be the same…
You’re not the friend I used to love those days…

Ten years of loving you seem too long…
But let me spend the rest of my life
finding someone who’ll love me more…
You had your chance,
It may be too late
for past lovers to be friends…
I chose to go away, to be happy..
So I could mend, and accept that you’re no longer mine.
..You’re no longer HIM….

I was in love with the past.
I was so stuck.
and now I’m finally walking my way, standing without looking back.
It may not be as easy as setting aside my things.
but you have no pictures anymore and your face no longer clear.
You belong to her… and you said good bye to me..
I’ve waited too long… now it’s my time to be free…