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Warning: Don't read if you don't care. It's just me ranting.



You have been warned.


Hi. It's been a while. Almost three months. I dated a black guy for a while, which was an experience...me and Tom are best friends, but as of yesterday we moved to friends with benefits, made out with some random guy at a party on New Years while I was wasted...started smoking...and now some guy I met through a friend is in love with me. But he won't commit. So I found this bumper sticker on facebook that's like "I'm good at making guys WANT me...not date me or marry me, but WANT me." because that's my life right now. And I don't like it. But I can't stop it. My life is horrible. I have all my single friends being like "don't complain, at least you have guys wanting you" but they really just want to have sex with me. It's meaningless. I don't really have any friends anymore. The boys that I'm closest to are the ones who I mess around with. My closest girl friend gets annoyed at me because I tell her these things and she gets jealous. And she's two years younger than me. I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. My mom keeps assuming I'm pregnant. Facebook ads keep popping up with "are you pregnant" ads.

I really want to graduate college. I really want a boyfriend. But my life right now...it's s**t.

Yay for being me. :/

Not.