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THIS IS IN THE VIWEPOINT OF A DUDE - NO LEZ ACTION OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT


Once a lonely wanderer, now a raging murderer. What happened to my life? i knew now more than ever that i could never return to sanity. Or... maybe i was never sane to begin with? Maybe nothing i ever thought of could be rational or... make sense. Thats when she showed up. She taught me that life, has no real purpose that is spelled out for you, that you have to find your own reason, make your own reason. The way she taught me, was hypnotizing. At first I thought she was a witch... i couldnt help but blame her, I thought she was afraid for other's lives, and her own, so she tricked me, tormented me with kind lies. Her lies ended with a blade to her neck. Not mine, nor anyone elses, but her own. Her purpose was to save me from myself, and she did. Then she ended her own life, as her reason was done. She had fullfilled what she was meant to do. Or had she? She thought that all she had to do was help one person. Maybe her life could have been more... We could have been more! Years after I knew that i could never care about someone so much. I loved her, and I knew that we could never be together in the afterlife. My consience is not clear, my sould black as death itself. I was destined for the Eternal realm of sinners.
Now, Murder is still on the high, and I fear for my life. I could not ever take another's life agian, no matter what the cost. Maybe, had she been around, I'd still be alive, and so would others. Many years ago, she saved her own life by saving mine. Then she took hers, and my life was empty.
Another had followed in my original footsteps. Their bullet of hate pierced my skin and All I knew was black. I had the sensation of falling, and knew that I would never stop, but then, a pair of arms caught me, and i soared high above the bottomless ravine. Those pale, slender arms that took me to the graces above. It was her, and I saw her face come close to mine, with a smile.
In life, she saved me, In death, she restored what once was lost.