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No matter the situation, my gut is always right. I should have listened to my gut feelings when it came to promises made by friends. Its only natural for one to be more attached to her boyfriend, than to those who she made promises with. I'm sorry that I cannot make money fast enough to suit your needs. I only spend about 20 dollars a week from my paycheck, and save the rest. It just saddens me to actually open my eyes to the fact that certain people cannot be looked at in a certain light. They're good people, but they only care about each other, and not those around them.

She's making the same mistake I made when I had you-know-who. It'd be funny if things ended like they did with me. In a way I hope they do, then she'll realize the true value of friendship and hopefully learn on it.

In about two years, I will most likely be leaving with my parents to North Carolina. My gut is telling me that Tiffany will move out with Jason, leaving Jen and I to sit there and wonder what we could possibly do. The three are not supposed to break up, but as I look on it more, I've come to realize that its just childish to think that you'd stay with your friends. I will only move out on my own under one of the two circumstances; 1. If I move out with friends, and 2 if I move out with a boyfriend. I have friends, and I doubt I will ever find someone, so I'm pretty ********.

I thought I had things in some sort of order, but now I have no idea on what I can do. I have little to no choice but to leave with my parents when the time comes. I doubt I will have enough money to live on my own, or a job that could support me. Its sad in a way, and I hate myself for relying on my friends so much.

I guess I am more mad at myself, than I am at her. But for someone I thought to be a good friend and toss me away as if I am nothing - wait, I shouldn't finish that thought, I already know the answer.