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story of my dispare, not my life
The past few years have been difficult for me....the suckage of my life hit its climax about 6 months ago when my twin brother died, we may have looked different (ok thats an understatement) but when it happened i didnt know what to do. i was like i didnt know how to live because i didnt..life without him would b so different and i wish...i realy wish i still feel him here, but i dont. i know he has moved on now maby to the summerplace, maby to his new life, idk but i know that life will never be that same way that it was the first 14 years of my life. 3 months later my older sister and my younger sisters left me..not left, i c them but not still here. miss them and its hard sometimes to loose 3 major parts of my life. yesterday, i relized ill never c my moo again..her all timers are so bad that she dosnt think i am who i am. shes so confused and i no she'll never no me no matter how many times i go 2 c her...that part of my childhood is lost forever but in my memories and dreams. i want to remember her from b4 but this has progressed to a point were ill have to remember the bad..no matter how tramatizing it is for me. iv cryed my eyes and my heart an my soal out dry but im done crying and now im going to live happy. iv gained many new things in my life as well but these things cant replace my old life. i do love change..but not this time. more as these times. 5 months ago i became a witch...im still a recovering christian and my parents dont yet know of my new religous choices and nether dose my youngest sister or other ppl close to me. more percisly the only ppl who know are my sister who "left" and a good friend. I dont know how well the except it but i know they except me still so im satifyed with my choice in telling them. Altho bad things have happened and the past 6 months have been the hadest of my life, i happy. im hopeing it lasts but i know not of this....i no, too long. 11/12/09
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