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...the one worth eating.

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*sigh* Things never turn out as you expect them to, but that doesn't mean stop trying. I hope that boy keeps his tounge regarding who I may fancy, otherwise I might be forced to use some elaborate forms of revenge to get my point across.

I didn't get to sleep till around 1AM last night, a co-worker of mine called me unexpectedly. For a moment I thought it was John, seeing that it said "Private Number Calling", so I automatically assumed it was him. Private numbers are so fustrating, you never know who is on the other end. I ended up talking to him until like 12:50 in the morning. It turned out that I was honestly invited to a party, in fact the person who was throwing the party really wanted me to show. I'll probably go if he decides to have another one.

I also realized that I am a lot pickier than I thought. Is it wrong to want to date someone who has goals in life, goes to college and doesn't do drugs? I don't want to get caught in the negative spiral again. Oi...what am I saying? I'm still caught up in a younger guy, I can probably pull myself out of it if I find someone that has goals and has his life in some sort of order.

*rolls around*

I may have to let someone down today, I just can't let myself get into a place where I know bad things will happen. I've got to look out for myself too, I think. Thats what Jen told me at least.

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So yeah, I'm back into writing again. I only tend to actually get ideas for poems, etc when I am doing more than one thing at a time. Or really tired, or all of them...

A mirror, twin hearts, a soul that binds them close
Bound so tightly until they share but one heart, a soul forever joined
Only such things exist within the mind
Of a fragile little girl

A love so pure only exists inside my head
Romantic interludes and sweet nothings between these two ears,
Its sad in a way, but where could something so fragile exist?

But for all I know
These simple things will be placed before me
A rose so sweet, complete with thorns
Tear them away and only leave the silken petals

Hold my hand and tell me a story
A future so bright, so clear and unwavering
Tell me that things will be better, a future worth seeing
But all these simple things exist within my mind

Fragile and timid, simple and beautiful
These simple things call romance and love,
Two souls to be bound, two hearts become one
Is only make-believe in this present day


If only I could take this world inside my head
And make it a reality

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Or thinking about someone/something/listening to the same song over and over...that usually does it too.