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well sweety... all i can say is the heart wants wat the heart wants
11:08pmSabrina

tru.. tru..
11:09pmSam

stop running sweety... ucant hide from it
11:10pmSam

but know wat
11:10pmSabrina

what?
11:10pmSam

im findin that ilyk gurlz alot

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my bad tryna do a wink and keep pressing enter
11:11pmSabrina

lol
11:12pmSam

ur nit the only one struglin with that lol

i mean not... damn lol
11:12pmSabrina

lol. so excited to tlk to me again that its messing up ur typing? lol
11:13pmSam

lol... its tru its tru lls
11:13pmSabrina

lol ^-^
11:14pmSam

i really meissed u

the whole time we didnt talk i couldnt stop thinking about u

i crie alt cuz i thot i lost a very good friend
11:15pmSabrina

me too! well.. for a while anyway.. after the summer came and went and the school year started i tried to get ovr it..
11:15pmSam

im crying now bcuz i found my best friend and i hope that she feels te same way
11:18pmSabrina

yeah. it actually makes me rly happy. I guess thats why I let my anger go so easily.. we were rly close sam... and then you just cut me off so abruptly.. i guess thats why it sucked so much...

Sam

i dnt really have an answer for thats y i dnt answer the question
11:21pmSabrina

so you stopped talkin to me for no reason??
11:21pmSam

no.. there was a reason

its jus i cant cohesively articulate the reason
11:22pmSabrina

try?

Sam

there was something that i was goin thru and needed to cut myself off from everything and everyone. including you
11:24pmSabrina

but you didn't even cut yourself off from everyone. u still tlked to Miya n 'em. & evey...
11:24pmSam

also i kinda felt as tho our relationsh was nt goin in a good direction... no i did fora moment

the break btwn u and i was so ruf that i didnt know how or if u wanted to be friends again... so iwaited until i thot the painhad went away
11:27pmSabrina

oh... I thought it went away the beginning of senior year... until I started seeing you every day.. watching you ignore me with what looked like the greatest ease...
11:28pmSam

it was much harder than it looked

it was easier wen ade strtd tryin my nerves and u said ntn
11:29pmSabrina

because after that one time I tried to talk to you in the hall and you just shrugged me of.. I becided to just take the hint

Sam

that was the hardest to do

i wanted to talk to so bad

but i knew that my situation would not permit me to
11:32pmSabrina

I'm still not exactly understanding this... situation. and I thought that's what best friends were for? y'know.. helping you get through the bad times.. not to run away when there's something wrong..
Sam

and i was stupid not to have relizedthtthen
11:35pmSam

give me ur number so i can call u
11:35pmSabrina

idk if you knew this.. but for the longest time.. I thought you weren't talking to us cuz we liked members of the same sex and you were trying to escape what you had with ade...

240-682-9610
11:36pmSam

ima call u tmrw is that ok

and ur rite i was

but im facing it now and am having the same struggle as ur liking gurlz and all

got togo god to tlkto u again...
11:38pmSabrina

kkz. yeah.. good to taalk to you too. good night
11:38pmSam

dnt know how ur gonna take this but i love you
11:38pmSabrina

love you too sam. sleep well
11:38pmSam

good nite
11:38pmSabrina

g'night